>> I'm going to give the typical answer
and say I love helping people, but it is about more than that.
I do work at a world class institution.
I just wrote a paper the other day
and I was citing the attending physicians that I work with.
So they're the forerunners of research.
And, you know, we're in the transplant ICU and endpoint.
People fly to us.
Hershey Medical Center transfers to us.
Like, we are the endpoint.
So we're the last stop for those patients.
And we've got to either fix these really sick, complex human beings,
or they get discharged to the ICU in the sky.
It can be hard sometimes.
It can be hard.
There are days that you come home and you feel really good about what you did.
But a lot of times, being in the ICU, those days are few and far between.
Sometimes, you know, it really affects you negatively.
Emotionally.
And it can be hard and you can go home and cry yourself to sleep.
And there's just days where you feel inadequate.
And it's not because you did anything wrong it's just because that's the way the cookie crumbles.
No matter how long you've done this, seeing a dead body never really gets normal, you know?
And there is something to be said that, like, when a soul leaves a body
and that person is dead and everybody calls it, like,
it's kind of just a big empty suitcase on the bed.
And, like, the color's not right.
They're not moving.
It's just a very weird thing that you can never really get used to it.
So that's hard.