>> I love the babies, the patients, and I love the interaction
with the families and that whole dynamic.
I went into it, I feel, because I was more of a people person.
I love talking and helping people.
And as a nurse, I feel that you really get that aspect.
I get the start-to-finish with the baby, and not just about their -
what I should do to make their fluid come off their body, what meds should I give them --
and more about holding them and comforting them
and giving them those meds and having input in that.
But I have the whole rounded picture.
So I think the most challenging thing for me is that some babies are not -
or some of them may not be able to be saved, but our medical equipment can keep them alive
for a period of time that you can become attached.
Or you come to a point where the baby knows you are there.
They look at you, they smile, they feel you, they respond to you.
But, like, there's only so far we can go with what we have medically.
So it's that stopping point where there is nothing more we can do,
and no matter what we want to do and we want to fix this problem but we just don't know how
to fix it, we don't know what's wrong with them.
But having your resources of other nurses that have been through it before,
they kind of talk with you or - it's not even like getting through it.
It's just hashing out your - what you feel.
It's kind of getting something off your chest, because there is nothing we can do.
And you just kind of have to go through it.